Monday, July 23, 2012

Should I stay or should I go

Wow its been quite a week Wait! What? Its only Monday!!! You have got to be kidding. Well when you are home all the time and there is no pay day or day off to remind you, the days seem to run together. I love that I don't have to miss anything with my children but then again I don't miss ANYTHING with my children. There is never a mess that someone else gets or a diaper that I don't change or a plate that I don't make or a drink that I don't refill. I am really struggling lately with wanting to stay home and be with them every minute and wanting to have a little bit of a life of my own. I am really missing working outside the home lately as crazy as that sounds.

I love knowing I am available whenever any one of them is sick or has an appointment. I love being the main care giver. I enjoy all our park, museum, Sweet Frog, water park, swim, late night, movie, nature trail, library days and wouldn't trade the memories I have of the past 5 years for anything in the world but I also love making my own money, lunches out with co workers, the hustle and bustle of a job. I really miss the companionship I have had with co workers in the past.

In one way I think I must need to be medicated to even think about working seeing how most days I don't have time to take a shower or put on "real" clothes. I know taking on any other projects would probably push me over the edge but I think I am ready to give it a try...maybe.

I don't just want to get a break from my kids even though being around people that always urinate in the bathroom and never gets naked and tries to glue themselves to my dogs does sound relaxing that's not the only reason. I just miss the independence having my own job gave me.

On the other hand, I know I will miss my kids so much and I am not sure after being their main squeeze for the all their lives any of us would handle the separation too well!



  1. OMGoodness! That pic is so stinking cute! LOL!

  2. lol! Who needs the most sympathy? You because you have to clean it up? Or, the doggie for having to endure? LOL.

    1. Me! The dog loves craft time with them. Probably partially because he steals their snacks while they are working lol